Flattery? I think NOT.

One more email from people searching for me on mylifebullshit.com. Stop! I could care less.If I wanted you in my life you would be! I excavated you for a reason. Let's keep it that way. Past is the past, you weren't worthy then and you never will. Spend your energy on something else.Because I am the master escapologist. Smooches.

Judgement Day

How high are the stakes How much fortune can you make. It's funny I spent my whole life wanting to be talked about. I did it, Just about everything except my name in lights. Was it all worth it And how did I earn it. Nobody's perfect I guess I deserve it. How high are the stakes How much fortune can you make. Does this get any better. Should I carry on, Will it matter when I'm gone Will any of this matter. It's funny, How everybody mentions my name But they're never very nice. I took it, Just about everything Except my own advice. How high are the stakes. How much fortune can you make. Should I carry on, Will it matter when I'm gone./MDNA

The Car Ride

"This afternoon it was beautiful. The sun was golden,the trees are variegated ,Spring has arrived. I even saw soft purple and pink lilacs blooming on one the corner houses driving through town. I arrived in the city around 6 give or take a few extra moments for traffic. All was quite. I went into the bedroom. I threw myself on my bed. The sun beaming onto the yellow bedroom walls through the terrace doors, the curtains flowing from the breeze. It felt surreal. I laid there for quite a while just listening to the sounds, and looking around. It was so tranquil, I felt almost as if I were high for a few minutes. The calm before the storm. The car arrived on time so I could met him at the airport. He was arriving at JFK. I greeted him delicately and warm. I did miss him very much but something has changed in me. He was a bit different. As we got his luggage we exchanged conversation ,he was very affectionate but in a frat boy sort of way. He was exhausted but had a lot to say. I was loving,I was thoughtful. I listened, I was interested though. I find his life fascinating. We got in the car still chatting up a storm. His kisses were rough as if he could devour me at any moment he would. I guess I played into that. A bit of traffic but open road to FDR. As we traveled along our affections got more heated it became more of a yearning now. We became completely oblivious to the driver at that point. I sat across his lap, both legs on either side of his legs. I brushed his ear with my lips, he moaned and moaned louder and waves of heat pulsated through my body. His vocalization makes me vulnerable but in a very good way. His hands gripping through my hair, thrusting his hands up and down my legs. While our lips never parted. As we arrived closer to his apartment. My hands on his face staring him in the eyes, his look was intense. He was saying all of these things, words and sentences that just sent my mind and body in a complete state. My whole body just felt as if it exploded. As this was happening he was kissing me. His tongue intertwining with mine it was wet, he was sweet and I had no control. We arrived at his apartment. He got out the car, I asked the driver if I could smoke. At that point it was the only thing I could do. I couldn't speak, I couldn't move, I couldn't, I just couldn't. " A, are you coming " he shouted with his briefcase, and luggage on the sidewalk. Inhaling my cigarette and blowing the smoke out the car window. I looked at him, he walked over as if to open the car door. I motioned with my finger for him to come closer, he leaned into the window. Sternly " A are you coming" as I kissed him in mid sentence. " I just did, and now I am going home. I will see you tomorrow." I have no idea why, I am still trying to understand it myself, why I just didn't go inside, why I didn't just stay. I asked the driver to go, and there he was standing in disbelief. It was what I wanted for the evening, it was what I needed. Even though he has been gone for a bit doesn't change at all how I feel, what's inside my head and what my feelings have been. He called but we said nothing of it only that I left him with just thoughts. "Actually no" I said " I left something in your coat pocket." "oh ok " He sighed in confusion. "Goodnight darling,I am happy you are home safe, and I will speak with you tomorrow " I whispered softly. hung up the phone. I left him a little part of me, which I will have to replace tomorrow. A girl can never have enough velvet blue panties." Bleu8

Autodidactism

I love to make the people stare They know I got that certain savoir faire

I know it’s me they come to see My pleasure brings them to their knees

I see you watching me Oh darling, I'm a trendsetter Yes, this is true, 'cause what I do No one can do it better

You can talk about me 'Cause I'm a hot topic I see you watching me..

Batting Glitter EyeLashes

She wonders if she will make it. She wonders if she can.
Will it be 12 o'clock time for the door of Wonderland.
She has on her pink petticoat and her blue stockings too.
She has heard of the twinkling lights bedazzled in crystal cut sliver
Special tea in glasses filled to the brim. It makes you feel silly,
giggly and true. There isn't a person there that isn't rooting for you.
This wonderland isn't for everyone only a few. She has been chosen for she is nothing like you.
Her heart is filled with warmth and supernatural spirit. She has seen things with her eyes
that will never come to your view.



Now she wonders if she goes threw that door. Will she want to return to where she was before.
It's very inviting, I can say this to you. There is not an articulate way to describe it other than to those few.
She can see the opening slightly a glow past the glittered wall that's past the door. She hears angelic music
that puts her to ease. The way she walks slowly and gentle as a winded fall breeze.It's not cold or nearly to hot.
It's filled with the perfect temperature.She is curious she won't stop. People are there that are recognizing and new,but she feels excitement and is so tempted to. It's forbidden to speak of once you have past. She isn't sure that she can
follow this one asked of task. A voice whispers softly " I will be waiting for you." She not aware of where it has come to.
Others have seen her they have followed her there. They have tried to ruin her,running with her blond flowing hair.Petticoat
covered in dirt from the ground as they have trampled her wonderland lusting about. Figures only a select few does she
grace her company too.

At some point she will find that wonderland door. Where no one will follow her she will lead the core. Bleu11

Inadequate

so you dont want to hear about my good song?
and you dont want to hear about how i am getting on
with all the things that i can get done
the sun is in the sky & i am by my lonesome
so you don't want to hear about my good day?
you have better things to do than to hear me say

god its been a lovely day! everything is going my way
i took out the trash today and i'm on fire...

so you don't want to hear about my good friends?
you dont have the guts to take the truth or consequence
success is in the eye of the beholder
and its looking even better over my cold shoulder

i'm not suggesting you up and line me up for questioning
but jesus think about the bridges you are burning
and i'm betting
that even though you knew it from the start
you'd rather be a bitch than be an ordinary broken heart

so go ahead and talk about your bad day...
i want all the details of the pain and misery
that you are inflicting on the others
i consider them my sisters and i'd like their numbers

god its been a lovely day! everything is going my way
i took up croquet today and i'm on fire

i picked up the pieces of my broken ego
i have finally made my peace as far as you and me go
but i'd love to have you up to see the place
& i'd like to do more than survive i'd like to rub it in your face.....

hey! its been a lovely day! everything is going my way
i had so much fun today and i'm on fire
god it's been a lovely day everything's been going my way
ever since you went away hey i'm on fire.....
i'm on fire...
i'm on fire...
so you dont want to hear about my good day?AP/DD

Absence

"Being a Heartless Bitch isn't about stepping on other people, or reality TV-style sabotage antics. Its about working hard for what you want, and knowing when to stand up for what you deserve. Its not about demoralizing others; its about self-empowerment. Its not about being arrogant; its about displaying your confidence and intellect as a badge of pride. Its not asserting any inherent superiority or self-entitlement, but recognizing your own self-worth and value." Katty

Yin-Yang

Please allow me to introduce myself

I'm a woman of wealth and taste

I've been around for a long, long year

Stole many a man's soul and faith

And I was 'round when Jesus Christ

Had his moment of doubt and pain

Made damn sure that Pilate

Washed his hands and sealed his fate

Pleased to meet you

Hope you guess my name

But what's puzzling you

Is the nature of my game

I stuck around St. Petersburg

When I saw it was a time for a change

Killed the Czar and his ministers

Anastasia screamed in vain

I rode a tank

Held a general's rank

When the Blitzkrieg raged

And the bodies stank

I watched with glee

While your kings and queens

Fought for ten decades

For the gods they made

I shouted out,

"Who killed the Kennedy's?"

When after all

It was you and me

Let me please introduce myself

I'm a woman of wealth and taste

And I laid traps for troubadours

Who get killed before they reached Bombay

Pleased to meet you

Hope you guessed my name,

But what's puzzling you

Is the nature of my game,

Just as every cop is a criminal

And all the sinners saints

As heads is tails

Just call me Lucifer

'Cause I'm in need of some restraint

So if you meet me

Have some courtesy

Have some sympathy, have some taste

Use all your well-learned politesse

Or I'll lay your soul to waste.

Pleased to meet you

Hope you guessed my name,

Tell me baby, what's my name

Tell me honey, can ya guess my name

Tell me baby, what's my name

I tell you one time, you're to blame

What's my name

Tell me, baby, what's my name

Tell me, sweetie, what's my name

-SFTD -MJ..KR need I say more.

PostCard Recollection

He gave me a significant pet name. One of was his for only me. He gave me this name, as I would purr fiercely in his ear. The vibrations would send him into waves of pure joie de vivre.

On his journeys around the world.Where his press tours would land him. I would send him telegrams and postcards. These notes would tell him to meet me in some of the oddest locations.Signing it only by his given name to me.

During public hours in these often contingent locations we acted as complete strangers. Though we would end up one after midnight.

-Bleu06

Taste of Your Own " Medicine " Darling....

I want your whiskey mouth all over my blonde south
Red wine, cheap perfume, and a filthy pout
Tonight bring all your friends because a group does it better
Why river with a pair, let’s have a full house of leather

Dirty pony I can’t wait to hose you down
You’ve got to earn your leather in this part of town

Dirty pearls and a patch for all the Rivington rebels
Let’s raise hell in the streets, drink beer, and get into trouble

Whip me, slap me, punk funk
New York clubbers, bump drunk
Budlight liquors, bar slam
Move it, this is your jam

Wash the night, with St. Jameson
Like, a baptism
Heavy metal lovers play

I could be your girl-girl-girl-girl-girl-girl
But would you love me if I ruled the world
HML/SG

The Truth? Miss Bleu

In the most Biblical sense,
I am beyond repentance
Fame hooker, prostitute wench, vomits her mind
But in the cultural sense
I just speak in future tense- J Gaga

Cheeky Peacock Worship....

Word on the street, you got somethin' to show me, ee
Magical, colorful, Mr. Mystery, ee
I'm intrigued, for a peek, heard it's fascinating
Come on baby let me see
What you're hiding underneath

Words up your sleeve
Such a tease
Wanna see the show
In 3D, a movie
Heard it's beautiful
Be the judge
And my girls gonna take a vote

Come on baby let me see
What you're hiding underneath

I want the jaw droppin, eye popin, head turnin, body shockin
I want my heart throbbin, ground shakin, show stoppin, amazin
Are you brave enough to let me see your peacock?
Don't be a chicken boy, stop acting like a beeotch
I'ma peace out if you don't give me the pay off
Come on baby let me see
What you're hiding underneath
Are you brave enough to let me see your peacock?
What you're waiting for, it's time for you to show it off
Don't be a shy kinda guy I'll bet it's beautiful
Come on baby let me see
Whatchu hidin' underneath

Skip the talk, heard it all, time to walk the walk
Brake me off, if you bad, show me who's the boss
Need some goose, to get loose, come on take a shot

Come on baby let me see
What you're hiding underneath

Are you brave enough to let me see your peacock?
Don't be a chicken boy, stop acting like a beeotch
I'ma peace out if you don't give me the pay off
Come on baby let me see
What you're hiding underneath
Are you brave enough to let me see your peacock?
What you're waiting for, it's time for you to show it off
Don't be a shy kinda guy I'll bet it's beautiful
Come on baby let me see
Whatchu hidin' underneath

Oh my good no exaggeration
Boy all this time was worth the waiting
I just shed a tear
I'm so unprepared
You got the finest architecture
End of the rainbow looking treasure
Such a sight to see
And this all for me

Are you brave enough to let me see your peacock?
Don't be a chicken boy, stop acting like a beeotch
I'ma peace out if you don't give me the pay off
Come on baby let me see
What you're hiding underneath
Are you brave enough to let me see your peacock?
What you're waiting for, it's time for you to show it off
Don't be a shy kinda guy I'll bet it's beautiful
Come on baby let me see

I wanna see your peacock, cock, cock
Your peacock, cock
I wanna see ya
Your peacock, cock, cock
Your peacock
I wanna see your peacock, cock, cock
Your peacock, cock
Your peacock, cock, cock
Your peacock
I wanna see . KP PC

Shhh.....

The clouds are rolling in at this moment, the fog has begun to close in. The thick white lining of the clouds fill the sky above me. I haven't the slightest clue why I am still standing here. The rain comes slowly drizzling.Cold wet droplets of water fall upon my face rolling down my neck. I can see the waves of the ocean crashing against the rocks. It is an agitated sound, it isn't peaceful it is filled with rage. As I look down the age old rocks that look as if they won't survive the wrath of the storm. Embrace it my heart tells me. My head says run to shelter. My bare feet touch the wet and mossy grass. My toes feel cold but my body is aching for warmth. The lighting flashes brightly across the sky and the sea. I am memorized I am fixated. I walk closer to the edge again looking out at a dark and murky filled ocean the dirty white foam that crashes but yet it looks so inviting from up here. It is enticing, it is tempting. The winds blow in different directions my hair blinds me from the steps I take. Inhale deeply, scream loudly it echos throughout. Leap.... just do it. Just leap. What is the worst that can happen? The water splashes as I leap from high above. I am free,I am cold but I can no longer hear you and that is what I wanted all along. Bleu09

For Modern New York with Nostaglia

Disclaimer Darlings: For those of you who were not born here,grew up here or lived here ever. You'll never understand. It's the most fabulous place to absorb,live and learn life. Perhaps I am bias, but I am very protective of this sensational island. No matter who,where or what, I am always a New Yorker and it is ALWAYS my home. For it was the city that gave me such fond memories, still does and always will.

I'm out that Brooklyn, now I'm down in Tribeca
Right next to Deniro, but I'll be hood forever
I'm the new Sinatra, and since I made it here
I can make it anywhere, yeah they love me everywhere
I used to cop in Harlem, all of my Dominicano's
Right there up on Broadway, pull me back to that McDonald's
Took it to my stashbox, 560 State Street
Catch me in the kitchen like a Simmons with them pastries
Cruisin' down 8th Street, off white Lexus
Drivin' so slow, but BK is from Texas
Me, I'm out that Bed-Stuy, home of that boy Biggie
Now I live on billboard and I brought my boys with me
Say whatup to Ty-Ty, still sippin' mai tai's
Sittin' courtside, Knicks & Nets give me high five
I be Spike'd out, I could trip a referee
Tell by my attitude that I'm most definitely from
New York

Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There's nothin' you can't do
Now you're in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let's hear it for New York, New York,
New York

Catch me at the X with OG at a Yankee game
Shit, I made the Yankee hat more famous then a Yankee can
You should know I bleed blue,
Welcome to the melting pot, home of OLD SCHOOL hip-hop
Yellow cab, gypsy cab, dollar cab, holla back
For foreigners it ain't for they act like they forgot how to act
Eight million stories, out there in it naked
City is a pity, half of y'all won't make it
Me, I got a plug, Special Ed "I Got It Made"
If Jesus payin' Lebron, I'm payin' Dwayne Wade
Three dice cee-lo, three card molly
Labour Day Parade, rest in peace Bob Marley
Statue of Liberty, long live the World Trade
Long live the Kingdome, I'm from the Empire St. that's NEW YORK

Lights is blinding, girls need blinders
So they can step out of bounds quick
The sidelines is, lined with casualties, who sip to life casually
Then gradually become worse, don't bite the apple leaf
Caught up in the in-crowd, now you're in style
End of the winter gets cold, en vogue, with your skin out
City of sin, it's a pity on the wind
Good girls gone bad, the city's filled with them
Mommy took a bus trip, now she got her bust out
Everybody ride her, just like a bus route
Hail Mary to the city, you're a virgin
And Jesus can't save you, life starts when the church end
Came here for school, graduated to the high life
Ball players, rap stars, addicted to the limelight
MDMA got you feelin' like a champion
The city never sleeps, better slip you an Ambien

One hand in the air for the big city
Streetlights, big dreams, all lookin' pretty
No place in the world that could compare to
New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There's nothin' you can't do
Now you're in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let's hear it for New York, New York,
New York -jz

09/11/01

Dazzling Eye Candy.....

I am, I'm too fabu-lous
I'm so fierce that it's so nuts
I live, to be Monroe thin
Dress me, I'm your mannequin

J'adore, Vivienne I really want
Pucci, Fendi, and Cardin, Valentino, Armani too
Madame love them Jimmy Choo

Fashion put it all on me

Don't you want to see
These clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be

I need, some new stilettos
Can't walk, down the street in those
You are, who you wear it's true
A girl's just as hot as the shoes she choose

J'adore, Weitzman I really want
Louis, Dolce Gabbana, Alexander McQueen, eh ou
Madame love those Manolo.

Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be LG/F

Provocateur Chameleon

And the sky was made of amethyst And all the stars were just like little fish You should learn when to go You should learn how to say no Might last a day Mine is forever Might last a day, Mine is forever When they get what they want, they never want it again Go on, take everything, take everything, I want you to And the sky was all violet. I wanna give my violet more violence. And I'm the one with no soul One above and one below Might last a day Mine is forever Might last a day, yeah Mine is forever When they get what they want, they never want it again Go on, take everything take everything I want you to Go on, take everything take everything I dare you to
I told you from the start just how this would end When I get what I want I never want it again- CL/H

Question whom? And we're just playthings. Really, Not....

If your having girl problems I feel bad for you love
I got 99 problems but a bitch is not one

I got the purse patrol on the heels patrol
Just wanna make sure my casket's closed
They that say The're "North Shore "
I'm from there darling,glad you have your facts that they are those
That you have not another woe.
You'd celebrate the minute you were having a few foe
We're like f*** you, you can kiss my ass
If you don't like what We have to say, you can press that delete button on your screen.
Got troubles with those, It's not very nice to be so mean.
They don't like our ways, well I don't give a shit SO
They try to steal our ideas and give them a go
So people will think your the star of the show.
I don't know what you take me as
or understand the intelligence that Ms. A has
I've been educated darling, I am not dumb
I got 99 problems but a bitch is not one

The year is '94 and in my trunk is dispose
In my rear view mirror I repose to see its the m------ F------ law
I got two choices to pull over the car or
bounce those platforms on the double put the pedal to the floor
Now I ain't trying to see no highway chase with A
Plus I got a few dollars I can fight the case
So I...pull over to the side of the road
And I heard "Darling, do you know what I'm stopping you for?"
Cause I'm young and I'm blond and I have a sensational rack
Do I look like a mind reader sir, I don't know
Am I under arrest or should I guess some more?
"Well you was doing fifty five in a fifty four"
"License and registration and step out of the car"
"Are you carrying anything on you I know alot of sassy girls are"
I 'm not stepping out of shit all my papers are legit
"Do you mind if I look round the car a little bit?"
Well my glove compartment is locked from the valet in NYC so is the trunk in the back
And I know my rights so your going need a warrant for that
"Aren't you sharp as a tack are some type of lawyer or an Ivy league grad?"
"Or somebody important or something?"
No I haven't passed the bar or entered a silly sorority fad but I sure do know a little bit
Enough that you won't illegally search my shit
"Well see how smart you are when the other officers cum."
I got 99 problems but a bitch is not one.

You're crazy for this one A
It's your entertainment.